Two years ago I was working for David Llyod's leisure centre in Sidcup Kent, when I had my moment of ephiphany most of the members were well educated and very nice it was possibly one of the nicest job I have had. when it suddenly hit me if I didn't sort my life out and get some qualifications I would be stuck in this job for the rest of my life and as tempting as it can be staying in a job just for security was never going to be enough for me.  I didn't just leave my job straight away I first went to lewisham college and took my mortgage money for the month no not to pay my mortgage on the way home it was to pay for a course in any sort of English writing course if truth be known I actually didn't know what to do. I enrolled on an English communications course and went from there. The first year went well it was one night a week so it didn't affect my work I just changed my rota so every Thursday's off I would go every week and ending up getting my first G.C.S.E I was so proud and to just add the cream to the cake I won an award it was the Rockpool Award for Outstanding Progress and Determination. It was a £50 voucher for W.H.Smiths. I was absolutely delighted well it just spurred me on. I have always loved radio so I applied to Lambeth College to do a Radio Production Course and that's when I had to find ways to stay sane the reason for this is.
I cut my hours down at work to part time and began my full time course, which I loved it was scary and I felt very insecure as the children on the course who had just left school could write and present wonderful essays. I hadn't done anything like this ever I didn't even know what an evaluation was not only that my wonderful new education ruined my job, how you ask?
my brain had changed, my outlook changed and I changed I suddenly had an insight into my mind I could not stay at David Lloyd if one more lady asked me for a decaff, skinny soya latte I would lose my mind and all of a sudden I realised that actually I was cleverer than the Club manager who was the same age as my daughter and spoke to me like a piece of poo, she didn't mean to it was her personality but it was the final thing that led me to leave, I was tired I was doing my course, going to work and also working at a community radio station. I didn't just leave I tried going to a club that was nearer to me but that was a disaster it was then I realised that I had changed.  I feel bad about the way I left but I could not stay at the club a moment longer actually I went in one rainy wet monday morning and Mr Arsehole as I liked to call him was spotted (by me) slagging me off about his stupid fucking Americano and the young girl I was working with had left her personality at home, I said to her "I hate working here" and she replied "Why don't you get another job then?" That was quite a stupid thing for her to say to me especially since it was only me and her working that morning, I must say it was wonderful to see her mouth turn into a perfect O as I shouted to her "Bye" I jumped onto my bike and imagined that I was on a horse galloping of to Freedom.  Keeping sane I don't know but I have no money, my lodger had to be thrown out (stealing money from me is not an option)
I need a job that meets my brain capacity at the moment I'm a librarian at a brand new resource centre, but I need money.